every once in a while, i get these bouts of depressions.
i think about the future, and i start thinking..what am i here for??
i only see a huge, gaping, black hole.
nothing's there.
not even pain, sadness, jealousy or anything of that sort.
just nothing.
don't get me started on death.
some call it, "sleeping to wake up with God."
others, "eternal sleep."
but me?? i think further.
what is there to do after?? after waking up with God, is there anything else i can do??? or just spend my days (if there are still days) leisurely..and over there no death exists.
so i don't even have death to wait for. to me, this is more scary than death itself.
i dream about escaping, running away from people.
i dream about outer space, flying away from everything itself.
dreams.
