i should've just stayed home =(
sigh. then at least i could've been playing monopoly with charis, levin and maybe florence, having dinner outside with everyone (free, too!), playing with adorable licky, and keeping the contented feeling in my heart.
INSTEAD..
i feel abandoned and doubtful. i hate this feeling. okay, i've got my girls with me which is a hell lot better than being alone.
that's why you shouldn't be going out with one of your close friends. then you wouldn't have to have met his family, and so NEED to have the approval. i hate that. needing approval of the people i need have always been there, just that i am aware of it and suppress it. but it's so different when it's the boyfriend's parents. uuurgh. why can't i just have the courage!
at least i know im definitely keeping my promise to myself (and kinda alot of people Xp) that's so gonna happen when im 21. or after my birthday.
on a whole new note, that best friend situation i had on the previous post or so, is settled. i went and talked to her, and we discussed the situation. it still surprises me how people have a whole different take on the same situation, mostly thinking that they are the victims.i've always been able to accept my faults (when you put it in a nice way) or analyze the situation fairly even when i'm in the wrong, so i guess i somehow find it fascinating how some people can see so "clearly" beyond the log in their eyes. owh well, it's settled already so i guess i shouldn't kick up more dust.
and my mum told me something i hope i can tell my own daughter some day.
"friends are those who still wanna be friends with you after knowing all your faults".
easy to say, but hard to really understand, for those who can't.
so i'll love sue even though she's a big mess cause she's one truely rare friend =)
and i'll love fiona even though she sometimes irritate the hell out of me,
and i'll love phui loo even though she can be too forceful sometimes,
and i hope that they do too.
as for my special friend, im not so sure..but what i'm sure of is that we're gonna be friends for a very very long time =)
